I am a nice guy, 50 years old, but never receive love.... i am not ghey too.
Before you think I'm some fat loser, think again. I'm good-looking enough to make ladies stare, turn their heads even when they are holding their boyfriend's hands, having a total female stranger drag me to the dance floor to dance with her, having a lady message me on Facebook, call me up for sex because she found me attractive. Although if you compare me with Wang Li Hom or Utt, of course, I lose to them. I also hit the gym quite regularly 2-3 times a week to keep trim. (Of course tastes differ and I don't appeal to all women.)
I'm a die hard romantic and a gentleman. Opening doors for ladies and pulling out seats for them. I remember everything they like, like their favourite food, thier favourite songs and even burn CDs of their favourite songs for them, springing them a surprise on their birthdays.
And I do all these without any ulterior motive. I do it because I'm a kind and nice person. I play the piano very well and I love watching chick flicks. If I have a girlfriend, I'd kiss her tears away and hug her from the back and write her love notes and serenade her. And I'd kiss her every morning to wake her up and tell her how much I love her.
But why can't I even find a date in my 50+ years of life? It really saddens me.
I have girls attracted to me, even those who are attached with boyfriends, and when I treat them nice without ulterior motive, sometimes they treat me coldly which frustrates me. I haven't met a girl I like who is single for MY ENTIRE LIFE. It seems like I was born in this world to suffer heart breaks after heart breaks.
A girl I liked in my school got killed in a bike accident. A girl I liked in JC, she liked me too. We were very attracted to each other but she had a boyfriend and I waited 5 YEARS for her. Crying myself to sleep for years.
I met a girl on the internet and we were supposed to go for a date. On the day of the date, she didn't turn up and when I went home, there were pictures of her kissing another guy all over her Friendster profile page (This was in 2005 before Facebook was born). I called my best pal up and cried.
The reason she gave me was, I was such a nice and sweet guy and she wanted to be with someone different. I cried so hard. I have always loved but I was never loved back before.
She broke up with that guy in about a month and dissapeared. That was in 2005 and since then I wasn't really involved with any girls.
I attended a class last year (2011) and met an attractive girl. I guess I was her type. She couldn't stop making bambi eyes at me and kept sitting close to me and "acting cute", touching me and always giving me the flirty eye. I decided to ask her out on a date, but she refused because she was already seeing someone.
Since then she started acting all cranky. Avoiding me during classes, not looking at me when I talk to her, and once even shouting at me to sit far away from her when we were having a gathering. From making Bambi eyes at me to shooting daggers at me with her eyes. All because I asked her out on a date.
And guess what, I saw her 2 months back holding a GIRL'S HAND and she tried to turn her body away when she spotted me looking at her. So she's BI or something.
I really don't know what have I done to deserve all these. I have given up on love already. I am a good catch. A very good one and all my female friends are always shocked when they learn that Im single, and single all the way. I even have to make up stories that I was attached before so as not to appear too weird. When Im at work and I walk past ladies, I can see the girls ogling although I think they're tired of me after more than 1 year of looking at me.
I guess my weak point is me being quiet. I'm a very melancholy, quiet type. But sometimes I can speak well too. And I hate going to clubs and having to scream over loud music to "pick up girls". I am shy and take a long time to warm up but I can be very confident too.
Things I don't understand are
1) Why do girls rush into relationships so fast. They see a guy and they just get attached so fast, they miss out on so many other better guys. I know so many girls who are in a relationship just because they are lonely, with loser guys who dont treat them well, are not romantic and not what they want. But they are stuck with the guy even when they don't love them.
2) Friendzone. When a guy treats a lady nice, they react with icy cold treatment. Whether a guy treats a lady nice out of kindness or even if they do treat her nice because of romantic interest, what's wrong with it? Why do girls have to treat guys who are nice to them badly? Is there anything wrong with a guy liking a girl?
I am a very decent guy and I do not watch porn as well. I know nuts about sex.
I believe in falling in love with a girl and saving sex for marriage, loving her unconditionally and accepting her for who she is, warts and all. If she grows fat, I will still love her.
It really hurts to be in my 50s and unable to get a date, having to bear with awkward looks and questions when my friends find out Im single all the while. And when I see my friends all with their girlfriends, holding hands, I feel so lonely.
I always thought I'd give my first time to a girl I love. But I finally snapped and gave up on finding love. Last week I visited a very high class and gorgeous working lady. That was the first time I felt love and being accepted. She was so tender with me and I was so touched by the whole encounter. I have not had a girl touch my body and caress me so gently before. At the same time I was so jealous of people who can have a girlfriend to "sayang" them. I was jealous of guys who were fat, ugly, poor, unromantic, slobs who treated their girlfriends like crap and still had a girl to pamper them...and some of these guys even visit FLs behind their girlfriend's/wive's back.
Throughout the whole session with the working lady, I wasn't interested in getting an orgasm or intercourse. I just wanted to hug and hold her, and run my fingers through her hair. I just wanted to "sayang" and love her.
I booked another super beautiful high end working lady a week later. And all I wanted to do was to hold and hug her rather than getting a blowjob or intercourse. For both working ladies that I encountered, I didn't even play their their breasts. I stroked their hair, kissed the forehead of the 2nd lady and hugged them.
I have given up on love. I am still a die hard romantic and still a kind gentleman. But my heart is dead already. Everyday I ask myself what have I done to deserve all these. I am always the kindest person not just to ladies but to my male friends also. Always protecting them in need, but why, I always ask, Why God, why do I have to suffer so much.
I have given up on finding a girl who will love me for who I am. This is when a nice guy snaps and gives up on love and girls. Now, it's nothing but visiting high end beautiful escorts. Yes, it's paid sex. And I'm not ashamed. At least I get loved in return even though it's service.
I don't know if theres any ladies reading this. I bet there's zero here on EDMW. But this is the reason why some nice guys snap, give up on love and visit working ladies.
Before you think I'm some fat loser, think again. I'm good-looking enough to make ladies stare, turn their heads even when they are holding their boyfriend's hands, having a total female stranger drag me to the dance floor to dance with her, having a lady message me on Facebook, call me up for sex because she found me attractive. Although if you compare me with Wang Li Hom or Utt, of course, I lose to them. I also hit the gym quite regularly 2-3 times a week to keep trim. (Of course tastes differ and I don't appeal to all women.)
I'm a die hard romantic and a gentleman. Opening doors for ladies and pulling out seats for them. I remember everything they like, like their favourite food, thier favourite songs and even burn CDs of their favourite songs for them, springing them a surprise on their birthdays.
And I do all these without any ulterior motive. I do it because I'm a kind and nice person. I play the piano very well and I love watching chick flicks. If I have a girlfriend, I'd kiss her tears away and hug her from the back and write her love notes and serenade her. And I'd kiss her every morning to wake her up and tell her how much I love her.
But why can't I even find a date in my 50+ years of life? It really saddens me.
I have girls attracted to me, even those who are attached with boyfriends, and when I treat them nice without ulterior motive, sometimes they treat me coldly which frustrates me. I haven't met a girl I like who is single for MY ENTIRE LIFE. It seems like I was born in this world to suffer heart breaks after heart breaks.
A girl I liked in my school got killed in a bike accident. A girl I liked in JC, she liked me too. We were very attracted to each other but she had a boyfriend and I waited 5 YEARS for her. Crying myself to sleep for years.
I met a girl on the internet and we were supposed to go for a date. On the day of the date, she didn't turn up and when I went home, there were pictures of her kissing another guy all over her Friendster profile page (This was in 2005 before Facebook was born). I called my best pal up and cried.
The reason she gave me was, I was such a nice and sweet guy and she wanted to be with someone different. I cried so hard. I have always loved but I was never loved back before.
She broke up with that guy in about a month and dissapeared. That was in 2005 and since then I wasn't really involved with any girls.
I attended a class last year (2011) and met an attractive girl. I guess I was her type. She couldn't stop making bambi eyes at me and kept sitting close to me and "acting cute", touching me and always giving me the flirty eye. I decided to ask her out on a date, but she refused because she was already seeing someone.
Since then she started acting all cranky. Avoiding me during classes, not looking at me when I talk to her, and once even shouting at me to sit far away from her when we were having a gathering. From making Bambi eyes at me to shooting daggers at me with her eyes. All because I asked her out on a date.
And guess what, I saw her 2 months back holding a GIRL'S HAND and she tried to turn her body away when she spotted me looking at her. So she's BI or something.
I really don't know what have I done to deserve all these. I have given up on love already. I am a good catch. A very good one and all my female friends are always shocked when they learn that Im single, and single all the way. I even have to make up stories that I was attached before so as not to appear too weird. When Im at work and I walk past ladies, I can see the girls ogling although I think they're tired of me after more than 1 year of looking at me.
I guess my weak point is me being quiet. I'm a very melancholy, quiet type. But sometimes I can speak well too. And I hate going to clubs and having to scream over loud music to "pick up girls". I am shy and take a long time to warm up but I can be very confident too.
Things I don't understand are
1) Why do girls rush into relationships so fast. They see a guy and they just get attached so fast, they miss out on so many other better guys. I know so many girls who are in a relationship just because they are lonely, with loser guys who dont treat them well, are not romantic and not what they want. But they are stuck with the guy even when they don't love them.
2) Friendzone. When a guy treats a lady nice, they react with icy cold treatment. Whether a guy treats a lady nice out of kindness or even if they do treat her nice because of romantic interest, what's wrong with it? Why do girls have to treat guys who are nice to them badly? Is there anything wrong with a guy liking a girl?
I am a very decent guy and I do not watch porn as well. I know nuts about sex.
I believe in falling in love with a girl and saving sex for marriage, loving her unconditionally and accepting her for who she is, warts and all. If she grows fat, I will still love her.
It really hurts to be in my 50s and unable to get a date, having to bear with awkward looks and questions when my friends find out Im single all the while. And when I see my friends all with their girlfriends, holding hands, I feel so lonely.
I always thought I'd give my first time to a girl I love. But I finally snapped and gave up on finding love. Last week I visited a very high class and gorgeous working lady. That was the first time I felt love and being accepted. She was so tender with me and I was so touched by the whole encounter. I have not had a girl touch my body and caress me so gently before. At the same time I was so jealous of people who can have a girlfriend to "sayang" them. I was jealous of guys who were fat, ugly, poor, unromantic, slobs who treated their girlfriends like crap and still had a girl to pamper them...and some of these guys even visit FLs behind their girlfriend's/wive's back.
Throughout the whole session with the working lady, I wasn't interested in getting an orgasm or intercourse. I just wanted to hug and hold her, and run my fingers through her hair. I just wanted to "sayang" and love her.
I booked another super beautiful high end working lady a week later. And all I wanted to do was to hold and hug her rather than getting a blowjob or intercourse. For both working ladies that I encountered, I didn't even play their their breasts. I stroked their hair, kissed the forehead of the 2nd lady and hugged them.
I have given up on love. I am still a die hard romantic and still a kind gentleman. But my heart is dead already. Everyday I ask myself what have I done to deserve all these. I am always the kindest person not just to ladies but to my male friends also. Always protecting them in need, but why, I always ask, Why God, why do I have to suffer so much.
I have given up on finding a girl who will love me for who I am. This is when a nice guy snaps and gives up on love and girls. Now, it's nothing but visiting high end beautiful escorts. Yes, it's paid sex. And I'm not ashamed. At least I get loved in return even though it's service.
I don't know if theres any ladies reading this. I bet there's zero here on EDMW. But this is the reason why some nice guys snap, give up on love and visit working ladies.